Here's to moving forward.

Ok. I admit it. I have only written three entries. I'm really horrible at keeping up with these things. Thanks to Micah Miller, I will write another blog!

My best, Lacey Fitch came into town which made me so happy and also made me quit caring about my blog readers. I know how all of you wait anxiously for the next entry.

Every day looked like this with a different background depending on the moment. I remembered what it felt like to have a close friend around.  Cody is wonderful, but he can't play every role - friend, roommate, boyfriend, family, etc.  It was so refreshing to have her here! In fact, we had such a great time.. Lace has every intention of moving here within the month!!

I don't know how to go over every detail of the past few weeks, so I choose not to. I always get confused about what blogs should be about.. Do you want to know my day to day? I'll just share a few of the things I've randomly thought - "Hey! I should blog about that!"

So, in moving to a new city, I've learned quite a few things.  It's important to stay active outside of this apartment which sometimes doubles as a dark cave I hide away in. I'm trying to create activities for myself, join social clubs.. The first one? KICKBALL! My new friend, Silvia invited me to join their "super social" kickball team to meet new people.  Granted, I may not be the most fit person in the world, or someone super into sports, but I most certainly am "super social".  So count me in!  The next thing I really want to do is start some sort of book club.. I think it could be good?

Next. I've learned to appreciate cheap wine. I'm broke, and the 3.99 bottle of Tisdale that I get from the gas station down the street is totally worth it. It's delicious, and it works just the same.

Another tidbit I'll clue you in on... Tresseme "fresh start", a lovely product which is totally affordable.  I think it was five dollars. What is it? Well! It's dry shampoo. Why do you need it? Because sometimes sleep is more valuable than a shower!  You spray it in your hair when you wake up, or whenever you need it, shake it out, brush it out, and your hair looks freshly blow dried! I didn't believe it either, but it was cheap enough that I just bought it and went for it. IT HAS CHANGED MY WHOLE LIFE!!!

So for those of you who actually read this far and find me utterly entertaining.. you must really care about me. I'll get a little deeper into my life, while remaining vague, because who shares secrets in a public blog?  It's difficult sometimes for me to be here, in a new city where I am close to but one person. It's a challenge every day. I don't always handle it in the way I should. I'm not perfect. I don't know anyone who is, but I know people who try to be their best and those are the people who I look up to.  All I can do is try.  I'm trying to make new friends, ones I can trust. I'm trying to maintain my relationship while balancing the stress of living.  I'm fighting my crazy, the same crazy that lives in all of us that we manage to keep tucked away most of the time.  Things are looking up, every day is better, this is the most exciting time I have ever experienced. This has been a challenge, but nothing I would ever think about taking back.  I hope that the people in my life will continue standing beside me as I grow, and that I will do the same.  True friends are hard to find, but those of you who are in my life, I will do anything to keep you for as long as I can. Sometimes, happiness is a choice that we make. I choose to be happy, to let the adventure continue, and I choose to move forward in the best way I know how, regardless of the obstacles along the way.  I read somewhere that life is like a roller coaster; there are ups and downs, but at the end of your days, the goal is to be able to say "what a ride." It's not about hitting a peak, where everything is easy and smooth sailing, happy from that point forward. It's about dealing with whatever comes your way, getting back up, taking on life's obstacles and enjoyments.

And that's that.


I'll leave you with two quotes that have both weighed heavy on my mind today.

"When you're young, you think everything you do is disposable. You move from now to now, crumpling time up in your hands, tossing it away.  You're your own speeding car.  You think you can get rid of things, and people too - leave them behind.  You don't yet know about the habit they have, of coming back.
Time in dreams is frozen.  You can never get away from where you've been." - Margaret Atwood

"The longest, most arduous trip in the world is often the journey from the head to the heart.  Until that trip is completed, we remain at war with ourselves.  And, of course, those at war with themselves are apt to make casualties of others, including friends and loved ones." - William Sloan Coffin